| six feet down under |
[May. 13th, 2012|12:08 am] |
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As much as I do not want to throw a big party to celebrate my 21st, but spending it in a military camp on a SATURDAY is just plain fucking depressing
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[May. 7th, 2012|02:36 am] |
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 Was browsing through my previous posts since I had the time. Hah, its almost a year since I last blogged. So much things have changed. For the better for the worse. I was such a pessimist. Can't help but to pity myself as I look back at those times. Wondered why did I even choose to live or behave that way. The society does push people to their limits. I'm glad that I have this mandatory break from studying. Made me realize so much, so much things out there that I must fight for and live for.
I was still living in a fairytale before I enlisted. Living in a world of cinderella, snow white, beauty and the beast whom all of them lived happily ever after.
Now, I'm living life. Harsh realities, backstabbers, schemers, gossipers, superiors, thanks. Thanks for waking me up and changing my perspective of life. Perhaps all that I'm experiencing might just only be the appetizer, main course yet to come. After next year maybe? Or the year after the next? But one things for sure, I'm no pushover now. Receiving as much as you've worked for, now sound so unrealistic to me. Thanks to all those market spoiling schemers and gossipers. My perfect imagine of life and the world is now ruined.
I feel God's pain. You don't deserve this. You have been protecting me all these while for the past 20 years. I know there comes a point where You have to push me out of Your protective bubble, forcing me to do things which seems impossible to me. Ever since then, I know I've disappointed. I'm sorry.... I really need a break.
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[Jun. 6th, 2011|04:11 am] |
I'm blogging now simply cos I just can't get to sleep. And it has been awhile since I last blogged, so why not?
Finally, it's an end to a busy week. Dinner with the lectors and poly classmates, USS, going to the twins house to visit richie, (cutest dog ever) movie and etc. I've enjoyed every moment of it.
But now I'll have to face reality. I'll be serving the nation in 4 days time. Somehow I feel insecure. I don't know. It's getting quite sucky. There's loads of things that I got to leave behind. Some may even be lost. Even if it does, may God grant me the grace and understanding to accept it.
There's so much insecurities in me and it's bad. But all I could do is pray. Because something's are just beyond my control. To the world, go easy on me please. To be honest, I feel so emotionally weak sometimes. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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[Feb. 10th, 2011|05:52 pm] |
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Chance upon this really interesting post on Cris's blog. I shall post it here to share with everyone.
Every suicide has a murderer
The killer?
Ans: society
You may ask "why do you say this?"
My daughter killed herself because she was fat.
Society told her she was fat. She was only eight years old |
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| A new dawn |
[Feb. 8th, 2011|05:46 am] |
Okay. Why am I blogging at such insanely hour, 5.37am. Not because I didn't get to sleep, but I actually just woke up. Wasted my Monday I guess. I slept for 10 hours when all I wanted was actually a 30min nap. Oh Lord, grant me the strength and focus for the last 2 weeks of my school life. After which may you take control and lead me to wherever best for me. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| Destined? |
[Jan. 21st, 2011|08:25 pm] |
Do you believe in fate? The road that lies ahead of you, is it just fate or choices that you make that controls your destiny? If God provides us with choices and one day your choice isn't what's God's choice for you. Wouldn't everything in life just boils down to fate? Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| Moodless |
[Jan. 12th, 2011|04:26 am] |
I simply love chilly nights. I could even sleep without the air conditioning turned on. Cchem and lmqa are seriously out to spoil my mood these few days. It'll be over real soon. what's life after poly?
Army. Blahhhhhh Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| Prayer |
[Jan. 7th, 2011|03:53 am] |
So I have a presentation later. All the best to me. Hope it'll go well. And I wanna watch movieeeeeee. Gahhhhh Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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